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THE YIN YANG


Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Tuesday 27th March 2007

Been through a lot of emotions lately. I've hit the highs and the lows. The one thing that I hate being a woman is we have what we call "emotions". I hate it because it shows my weaknesses. Emotions can get so raw, so vulnerable, so open to hurt and pain. How come men do not get it that much? How come their hearts are somehow much colder and the pain can be erased faster and their wounds are like instant eraser. Sigh! I can choose to be an Ice Queen too but I didn't want to be an Ice Queen because then I will close up to all emotions and feelings. I choose the later cos' I need to be more human and more womanly. That's the God's given gift to all women.

Yes, I've a confession to make. I fell for my Pure Native but things didn't work out and believe it or not we're still writing to each other as special friends. We believe that we're crazy enough to continue such a weird, crazy friendship over the net. Pure Native is one cool fella. He is unique and special in his own way. He is gentle and speaks softly. At the same time he can be a savage too. He is a hunter and totally in love with his beautiful nature. Where else can be more awesome than Grand Canyon. He is the one and only kind in this world. A true Hopi. He is really patient and has high tolerance of Chinese Town Bumpkin's eratic behavior. He even reads all my long-winded's mails. He's got a terrible sense of humour and is a very self-sufficient man.

It's amazing that he still stay on as my special friend. We've been through a lot together with our frank discussions about what we want. Honestly speaking, I do not know where we're heading but we kinda didn' t want to let go of each other. Our friendship is too precious to let go. We understand each other very well and somehow we can be very open to each other and yak about anything under the sky. We can yak about boring stuff, funny stuff, happy stuff, work stuff and sometimes not too happy stuff like our frustrations, our lows, ..........

Pure Native loves me as a friend but I'm in love with him. How can I not love such a man? Well, I know that sometimes no matter how much we love someone, the sad thing is we cannot be with the person we love. So life goes on ..............


So sometimes I ask myself, "Should I be sad or be happy?", "Should I be grateful to have known my Pure Native?" or maybe we shouldn't have known each other at all in the first place. Then I will not feel the pain and hurt........What do you think? Truthfully, I still don't have the best answer. The only thing I know is I'm happy to receive his mails. His mails still make me laugh and make my day!

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